Huge decision making.......

Tonight I made a HUGE decision for Donovan's sake. Each year about this time (towards the Holidays) I fight and fight with myself whether or not to call Donovan's Grandma on his father's side of the family. She did not know of his existance.....well until tonight. Each year I would look her up or who I thought she was anyway. I would get the address and phone number right there in front of my face and boom....instant panic attack. I never had the nerve to call her. And her son never had the nerve to tell her of his son's existance.

Well tonight I got the best of that panic attack.....I showed it who was boss. I called first to ask and make sure I had Chris' mom's phone number and address right and to confirm it was really her. I told her I'd like to send her a card for Christmas and I was a friend of Chris. She asked my name and I told her and thanked her and hung up. Well I sat and thought a couple of minutes and called her back. I told her I wanted to clarify why I wanted to send her a card. I told her I wanted to send it for the past 9 years and never could bring myself to sending it. Then I told her she had a grandson by myself and Chris and his name was Donovan. Needless to say she was in shock. Thank goodness she didn't have a heart attack right there on the phone. We talked and she said she'd like to get to know her grandson. I am sending her pictures tomorrow in the mail. I also plan to take a trip next time we are in SC so that he can meet her for the first time. The door is open and if she wants to be in his life I will not shut her out like her son did.

Now I am going to pray that Chris can make the right decision for him and his family. If he wants to be in Donovan's life that door as well is open. It always has been. I hope he can come to the right decision not to punish an innocent child for MY mistakes as a teenager. Heck I was a child back then too and didn't always make the right decisions......but I got the best son a mom could ask for out of those wrong decisions.

I am glad I was finally able to open that can of worms. For the sake of Donovan of course and him asking questions about his other grandma. Please everyone Pray for Chris that he makes the best decision for him and his family situation whatever that may be.