Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Snow Day Declared!

So far we slept in!!

I woke up about 9 or 9:30. Dh has the day off (he was already scheduled off) and got up w/ the baby at 8:30. I got up w/ him at 4:30. So dh let me sleep in.

Then the kids ate, got all their snow gear on and went ice skating on our road in front of the house. It's a solid sheet of ice.

Now they are inside taking a break and drinking hot chocolate. I am sure once they're warm they'll go outside and go at it again.

I'm about to hit the shower then give the bay bay a bath and put him down for his nap and snuggle on the couch w/ a thick blanket by the (fake) fire place and watch a movie.

Yay for snow days!!! to be continued.....


What a day. After the kids came in from outside and had hot chocolate we ate lunch. I made fettuccinni alfredo and we had shrimp cocktail and marinated mushrooms for appetizers.

After we went to the grocery store. There must have been an accident on the interstate cause all the traffic was redirected through Brazil. Yuck with the icy roads. I got stuck on the ice for about 3 minutes. Trying to go at a stop sign and wheels just kept spinning and we weren't going anywhere.

We got home and while tony unpacked the groceries, i got dinner on our plates. We had a crockpot roast w/ all the fixings

After dinner we cleaned up and made peanut butter cookies, chocolate chip cookies, the dough for the cutout cookies (we're doing those monday) and banana bread.

Finally we are able to relax. Here are some pics of baking time.








Our SC Vacation pics

Our Thanksgiving visit with my family went fairly well. A few mishaps, but other than that it was okay. Here is a link to see all the pictures. Just copy and paste it into your browser to see all the pictures. Enjoy.
http://s12.photobucket.com/albums/a225/cschleppy/sc%20visit%20November%2008/

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Test results

Well I am sorry it's been so crazy and hectic around here. We went to SC for Thanksgiving and I forgot to post here B's chromosome analysis results.

Yay....he has exactly 48 chromosomes...not 1 more...not 1 less!!! He's perfect.

He is definitely coming around!! He has such the personality now and interacts with us as he should now. He's much more smiley....I believe Christmas is his favorite time so far. Man....those Christmas lights keep him busy for hours. LOL

Stay tuned for pictures from our trip!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Test #1 down........3 more to go.

We had Brandon's Echocardiogram done today. You'll be happy to know he has a nice healthy heart and no heart murmur. We are so relieved.

Tomorrow is his hearing test at the ENT's office.

I'll post results when I get them.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

An email from my life long friend. Thanks Melissa June

Just wanted to share this with you all. This is from my life long friend who is now a nurse in the military. Very uplifting and makes me feel better that I am such an OCD parent when it comes to my kids' health.

Quote:
Wow,
That was a lot to take in. I had no idea what you were going through. Are
you still going to SC this month? I got an invite from your mom but I can't
travel anymore until after Jayda is born.
I made some phone calls to some DR's that are friends of mine and they said
that the majority of infants that don't survive their first year because of
Edwards Syndrome is because the Pediatricians just keep treating symptoms
and fail to do the proper testing early on for this specific issue. Meaning
that when an infant has the reflux, the breathing issues, the apnea (which
all ties together) they are at higher risk for SID's. The reason is because
they aren't on the machine that alarms you if your child stops breathing, So
parents are only checking on the baby every 3-4 hrs and if the baby doesn't
wake them up and the parent doesn't set an alarm then they may not find the
baby until it's too late. You have B on a machine, you set your alarm for
constant checking and you are already having this testing done early on. You
are way ahead of the statistics that you keep reading about. I know that
doesn't make it any easier on you but statistically speaking B has much
better survival chances than all your statistics because of your
implementations in place. Please keep me informed.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Please Please PLEASE pray for a good outcome!!!

Taken from a different journal........


Post 1
Well I found out WAY more than I had originally anticipated at his appointment. For starters my little monkey gained a whole lb in a week....just one little week (6 days to be exact)

His neck issue wasn't the main issue of the appointment, turns out. He examined him and said basically to just make sure he gets the same amount of time on each side of his head while I am holding him.

So upon examination I noticed he seemed concerned with Brandon's eyes. He kept checking them and going back to them through out the appointment. Brandon is not tracking properly, in other words he should recognize us and follow us but does not. He would not follow DR J or make eye to eye contact w/ him. We (Tony and I) both have noticed this but never brought it up to each other until today). He does not track us properly. He does not follow us w/ his eyes when he walks across the room. So with all that said, he has to see a pediatic specialist that specializes in developmental delays. Still waiting for that appointment.

Also upon examination, this time having to do with stopping breathing, he noticed B has a heart murmur. So we have an appt next week at St Vincent's children's hospital in Indy for an echocardiogram. Also he has to be put on an Apnea monitor to alarm me when B quits breathing. He was also put on Pepcid for reflux to see if that helps. Dr J said sometime reflux can cause babies to stop breathing I mentioned to him the possiblity of floppy larynx and he wants to try this route first.

To boot, Brandon is tongue tied. LIke I said way more information that I wanted to recieve, although I am glad we're finding all this out now and not later. Tony was pretty upset. He is very afraid B will become mentally retarded. I am the one who is actually with peace with all the information this time and he is the one who is pretty upset. Well I need to go get Carmen from school. I do have some questions for you moms, so I'll post more when I return.


post 2
honestly i haven't had time at all today to process the information. i've been the busy business woman today trying to get things straight w/ insurance and appointments. trying to make sure i can get the soonest appointment possible everywhere. turns out the soonest i'll be able to get him seen is possibly in january for the developmental specialist. st v's is scheduled out til march. i just got home from getting carmen and the lady from apria healthcare finally called back and they wanna see B TODAY. so I am leaving again in about 15 minutes to go back to TH to get him on the apnea monitor. I am sure once I settle down for the day it will all hit me and i'll be a basket case. I just haven't had the time to process everything or research anything at all.


post 3
Okay so during the literally 30 minutes I was home this afternoon and updated ya'll I did just a little bit of research. Well my research led me to remember that I tested positive for Trisomy 18. see thread on that http://valleymoms.com/forums/showthread.php?t=15937

So remembering that I tested positive I decided to look at the symptoms again of babies who are born with this genetic disorder. Here is what I have found. Stuff that is bold and underlined are characteristics Brandon exhibits.

Trisomy 18

Quote:
Trisomy 18 or Edward's Syndrome, is the second most common trisomy after Down's Syndrome. Edward's Syndrome occurs when three sets (trisomy) of chromosome 18 occur.
Trisomy 18 is therefore caused by a genetic abnormality occurring before conception, when egg and sperm cells are made. A healthy egg or sperm cell contains 23 individual chromosomes - one to contribute to each of the 23 pairs of chromosomes needed to form a healthy, 46 chromosome cell. However, sometimes egg and sperm cells are left with 24 (or more) chromosomes. It is the joining of these egg or sperm cells that eventually cause a trisomy fetus to be formed.
edward syndrome symptoms - a look at the symptoms of trisomy 18

It is this extra genetic information that causes all the trouble for individuals with Edward's Syndrome. As each and every cell in their body contains extra information, its ability to grow and develop appropriately is delayed or confused. This results in characteristic physical abnormalities such as low birth weight; a small, abnormally shaped head; small jaw; small mouth; low-set ears; and clenched fists with overlapping fingers. Those with Edward's syndrome also have heart defects, and other organ malformations such that most systems of the body are affected.
Edward's Syndrome also results in significant developmental delays. For this reason a full-term Edward's syndrome baby may well exhibit the breathing and feeding difficulties of a premature baby. Given time and the assistance regularly offered premature babies, however, some of these infants are able to overcome these initial difficulties.
The survival rate for Edward's Syndrome is still incredibly low. Only 5 - 10% of liveborn infants will survive their first year of life. Major causes of death include apnea and heart abnormalities. It is impossible to predict the prognosis of an Edward's Syndrome child during pregnancy or the neonatal period. Some children with Edward's Syndrome develop only a small degree, while others gain many of the skills of their Down's Syndrome peers - walking, talking, attending school, holding down a job, etc. As major medical interventions are routinely withheld from these children, it is also difficult to determine what the survival rate or prognosis would be for the condition if they were treated with the same aggressiveness as their genetically 'normal' peers.
The rate of occurance for Edward's Syndrome is ~ 1:3000 conceptions and 1:6000 livebirths, as 50% of those diagnosed prenatally with the condition will not survive the prenatal period. Although there is an increased risk of conceiving a child with Edward's Syndrome as a woman's age increases, women in their 20's and 30's still conceive Edward's Syndrome babies.
A small percentage of cases occur when only some of the body's cells have an extra copy of chromosome 18, resulting in a mixed population of cells with a differing number of chromosomes. Such cases are sometimes called mosaic Edwards syndrome. Very rarely, a piece of chromosome 18 becomes attached to another chromosome (translocated) before or after conception. Affected people have two copies of chromosome 18, plus extra material from chromosome 18 attached to another chromosome. With a translocation, the person has a partial trisomy for chromosome 18 and often the physical signs of the syndrome differ from the typical Edward's syndrome.
So did I have a major breakdown??? YOU BETCHA!!!

post 4
i can't take it. i am an emotional mess right now. tony is at work.....the kids are wondering why i am crying so much.....i hate it. i just want answers.....i want them now. i don't want to wait for confirmation. every time i look at B i break down. i wish i had someone here to hug me and hold me right now.

post 5
What a long night. Poor Jenny called during my major breakdown. Jenny, I hope I didn't scare you too much. I was having a major moment. Once I pryed myself away from the computer things calmed down for me. I am very OCD, so when something is wrong I tend to research the living shit out of it until I have myself convinced the worst is going to come out of it. Needless to say, I am going back on my meds in hopes to stabalize my moods.

So during all the research I found that you can have a Karyotype test done to check the blood for extra chromosomes. My physicians office told me you can not have a blood test done. So a light bulb just went off in my head this morning. Duh!!! Call your genetic counselor. She'll know for sure. So I called ST V's in INdy and talked with the genetic counselor and told her what I have found out and my concerns and asked what type of testing will they do. The first thing she mentioned is a standard Karyotype blood test. She then procedded to tell me about the other tests they do to test children for Trisomy 18 and birth defects. I feel a little better knowing I may be able to get him in for a blood test and hopefully put my mind at ease sooner than later. So I just called the dr's office again. They probably think I am psychotic by now. I asked for the nurse to call me back regarding this test to see if they'll order it.

While, yes, it is a good thing I stay on top of things when my kids are sick, ect....it's very disturbing too, especially for Tony. I go way overboard, but I can't help it. Seriously, I can't help it......medical condition. So now I am waiting for the nurse to call me back.

Hey val, I am sure you'll read this. Would you mind calling Pastor Tony (if you haven't done so yet) and explaining to him what is going on and ask for prayers for us. If I call I will just end up bawling my eyes out. I am okay typing this, but when I actually talk I end up crying. I would greatly appreciate it. We just need lots and lots of prayers that things will be okay.

post 6
i talked to the nurse and am waiting on a call back about the blood test to see if they'll order it.

post 7
so now we play the waiting game. :(

The nurse called back this morning and had me come to the office to pick up a lab req. I took that to the lab and they drew a cbc, tsh free t-4 (i might be getting these tests out of order so correct me someone) bmp ??? maybe those are the initials anyway they also drew a standard karyotype. the karyotype are the results i want like yesterday. they check for extra chromosomes. well that is the test that takes a week to a week and a half to come back Jenn met me at the lab and helped me out, but I think she had a harder time w/ it than i did I love her so much. god put her in our lives for a reason and i am so very glad he did. she's my angel!!!

so now i have to stay off the cpu (i will be on here and there) in order to keep my sanity for the week. i need to stay off the researching sites. i know what i need to know and reading it over and over again will do nothing to me but depress me deeply. if i think of anything i will research but for now everything is in god's hands. i am just praying for good results. we go monday for his echo and then wed to the doctors for the test results of everything to date.

oh i got an apointment w/ the developmental specialist. JANUARY 23RD I am not too thrilled we have to wait that long. If his test results come back abnormal you can believe I will be on everyone's ass until they get him in sooner (and by sooner i mean w/in a week). they will hate me, but i really don't care. I want what is best for my baby and if that means making all the doctors offices in the whole world hate me then so be it.

please continue to keep brandon and our family in your thoughts and prayers. for now i am going to think positive thoughts.



PLEASE EVERYONE PRAY FOR BRANDON FOR GOOD TEST RESULTS AND QUICK, PAINLESS TESTING.

Halloween photos of the kids together

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Brandon's Baby Caps I ordered........

I finally got Brandon's caps in the mail today. I them to pieces. YaY
Here they are
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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

brandon's sick appointment

well last night brandon wouldn't eat without crying. I knew he had thrush already but was told it didnt' hurt them. i called the on call practitioner and she said it very well COULD BE an ear infection. so i brought him in today. turns out no ear infection it's the thrush that is causing him to be fussy and not eat. they gave him this purple medicine that made him look like he ate blueberry pie but with blueberry's that stain

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I definitely got a kick out of looking in his mouth today it was cute.

On another note my baby is getting so big. Today we were at my computer and i felt a sudden warm sensation on my belly. At first I thought it was me getting a hot flash until I looked down and noticed he peed right out of his diaper. So glad I just finished that newborn pack of diapers. Guess it's time to go to size 1's. I have also had to start purging his newborn size clothing. I pulled out all of the 0-3 month clothes for him.

At the doctos appointment today he weighed a whopping 10lbs even. Who told him he could keep growing??

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Valley Mom's Halloween Party

The second annual VM Halloween Party was held last night. Tony met us there after work but didn't stay very long. He worked yesterday and was pretty well tired.

The kids had a blast, the food was awesome and very creative and I had a great time mingling with all my good friends and their families. Here are a few pics from the party

Brandon the B
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Carmen the Witch and Missy's cat
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Donovan the Killer
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Valley Mom's group shots
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Valley Dad's shot
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misc pix
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Brandon's first milestone

B is now 5 weeks 6 days old and B met his first milestone. He has accomplished the art of smiling while NOT asleep. I love it. But this just confirms he is already growing so quickly.

catching up on everything. It's been a while....

Prepare yourself. It's been a while since I've caught up on all of this. I will just copy and paste what I have written on other sites and try to update this more often. :)


10-14-08
Time fly's by...........

My baby is 1 month old tomorrow. :( I don't want him to grow up.

We had his well child visit today.

He now weighs 8lb 9oz and is 20.5 in long. Omg...he's getting big. I hate it.

He is still doing well and such a great baby.


10-08-08
Things have been great. I could not have asked for a better little man. He is just amazing. He has been staying awake longer during the days. He still just eats and sleeps at night. I am so blessed he knows his nights from days. He is a spoiled little man, though. He gets to sleep w/ mommy and daddy every night. He doesn't like the bassinett too well. But he loves his bouncy seat with the music and lights and the vibrations. So tonight I think we'll try the vibrator on his bassinett and see if it helps him sleep better. If not, oh well he'll just have to snuggle w/ mommy again

He has been such a great little shopper too. No fussing (unless he's pooped or hungry). I am just so tired these days. Every night, right around this time (7pm) I get extremely sleepy and often take a nap. Then I wake up to tuck in the kids and go right back to bed, after I make sure Brandon is taken care of.

Tony is a big help these days. He has been helping a little more w/ the ebay stuff. He does the packaging which is a huge help to me. Plus it's the part I hate the most. I still shop, print postage and go to the post office. But what he's doing is so much more helpful.

We go next tuesday for his 1 month check. Holy cow...my little man will be a month already. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want him to grow up. I want him to be this age FOREVER!!!
Well here are a few updated pictures....

This is him 3 weeks and 2 days old...........

His kissy face..........


What you talking about Willis face............


B and Auntie Jenn............



09-22-08
Today was Brandons 1 week check up! I can't believe it's been a week already. Holy crap how time flies by.

Well he's back to his original birth weight 6lb 13oz. He grew 1/2 in.....he's 19 in now. geesh 1/2 in in only a week. wow. His circumcision is healing perfectly. He is doing so awesome now!! I am so much more happy and so is he since we started bottle feeding.

I don't cry nearly as much anymore. I was so frustrated in the beginning and things are now getting back to normal. Dh is such a big help. He watched Brandon today while I went to TH to pick up Carmen and do the ebay shopping. Such a relief.

Brandon is eating about every 3-4 hrs. I set my alarm for 3 hrs at night and if he isn't awake i set it for one more hour. I don't let him sleep past 4 hrs. He is drinking 2-3 oz now per feeding. Basically about 2.5oz. He leaves a little. I don't force feed him or try to convince him to finish the bottle. I just let him tell me when he's done. He's finally adjusted to the formula and I haven't been getting surprise diapers every diaper now.

On my way out of the Dr office I weighed myself. I was mortified when I was in the hospital and weighed myself and saw i had only lost 5 lbs. But today when I weighed myself I lost 15lbs. Yay Only 9 more to go until I'm back to my regular weight!!!

So that is the update for now.

Here are pix I took yesterday 6 day's old.













09-21-08

Sleep is a virtue.

Another reason I love Tony so much is when he see's I am stressed he is always there to support me and help me.

We found out that I am no longer able to breast feed. I am not producing enough milk. I tried pumping when Brandon wouldn't eat the other night and didn't even get out a teaspoon. I think that is one of the most devistating things I have gone through thus far. I cried and cried for hours. Just thinking that the last 4 days I had basically starved my child. It is one of the most horrible feelings I have ever felt. After a real good cry and Tony crying right along with me we accepted the idea that I will have to bottle feed. It's really no one's fault.

What teenager thinks about breastfeeding when getting a breast reduction? I was 15 when I had my breast reduction. Never had that been discussed or the thought crossed my mind. And even if it were discussed, at that age you don't really realize the benefits of breast feeding. I am guessing that not enough of my milk ducts were aligned properly therefore causing me not to be able to express enough milk for the baby.

Things have been wonderful, however, since Brandon has been on the bottle. Except for the explosive diapers almost ever time he eats, he is so much happier and content now. He sleeps very well and there is no more fighting w/ him about latching on and off the breast. Last night I actually got almost a full night's sleep. Also last night was the first night he's slept in his bassinet. I last fed him before going to bed at 11. When he woke up not too much later, Tony came in the room and asked if I wanted him to take him. Of course I didn't turn that offer down. I have been awake w/ him the last 5 nights. Since Tony is transitioning to night shift he was going to be awake all night anyway. So, every time Brandon woke up last night Tony fed him, changed him, burped him and so on. I got 8 hours of sleep last night (Except for the fact I am such a light sleeper and every time Brandon made a noise I was tuned in.)

I am so happy how things are going now. Life seems to be getting back to normal again. Tomorrow I start doing everything on my own again. Taking Carmen back and forth to Preschool, taking the kids to their activities...ect., ect. With still healing from my surgery and all I am limited on what I can do. I can't lift over 10 lbs, it sometimes gets uncomfortable when I am up walking for a while, my back still hurts from the epidural and so on.



BRANDON IS HERE!!! B'S BIRTH STORY

It was about 3:30pm when I first started noticing contractions. But since I get Braxton hicks all the time, I thought nothing of it. Carmen's bowling party was just ending. Jenny and I were fighting over money. LOL She was trying to give me money for something and I would not accept it. We were going back and forth until she gave it to Carmen. Well at that point how do I take money from a 5 year old at her birthday party. So I gave in. I told her (Jenny) she was making me have contractions Jokingly. We finally got done cleaning up from the bday party and headed home. All the way home the contractions didn't stop. I still paid no mind to them, again, as I thought they were just BH contractions.

We got home and I was wiped out. Plus I really can't carry anything inside so I went straight to the couch to lay down. After laying there for a while, I realized the contractions were coming about every 4-5 minutes apart. I still thought I was over playing the situation so I layed there for quite some time. Finally when they didn't go away 2 hours later, I called my doctor. He told me to lay down (duh, been doing that now for 2 hours) and to drink water and see if they subside. Nope, they did not. We waited for about 45 minutes before finally deciding to head to the hospital. I really really thought I was jumping the gun.

We took the kids over to Mari's house (a very close friend of mine) and dropped them and headed to the hospital. I was in no hurry to get there cause I thought they were just going to send me home.

We got to the hospital and walked up to the nurse's desk and told them why I was there. Instead of putting me in an observation room like they did the last time I was there, they put me directly into a labor and delivery room. I thought it was strange, again because I just knew I was going to be sent home. The nurse gave me the gown and everything to put on. I was so out of it I was forgetting which undergarments I needed to take off. I even asked if I had to take off my shirt and bra because I was cold. She said if I wanted an epidural, yes. I still hadn't even thought that far ahead…….EPIDURAL….. I won't need one of those tonight.

She checked my cervix to see if I was dilated. When I had my appointment earlier that week I was at 1cm dilated and not effaced. So when she checked me that night I was surprised to hear her say I was 50% effaced and 3cm dilated. Really?? I thought asked. So she placed a call into the doctor and we waited. I had to wait about an hour before I was rechecked. She told me if I had not made any progress by then , they would send me home. So an hour went by and I was rechecked. No progress was made. She called my doctor and he was uncomfortable letting me go home. I was instructed to walk for an hour and return to be checked again.

So, off to walk. Tony and I walked outside. It was beautiful and so nice to be kidless and hold hands again with my husband and not stressed. We talked and enjoyed each other's company. Other than the fact I looked like an escaped hospital convict walking the streets of Terre Haute at night and having contractions, it was kind of like a nice little date. We really enjoyed it. We went back to L&D to get rechecked about 30 minutes later. I was totally shocked when she (the nurse) told us I was now 75% effaced and 4cm dilated. WOO HOO!!!! I was one happy camper. I knew then that it was only a matter of time. Since I was making progress they decided to keep me. I asked if I could walk some more instead of getting the IV right away. So we walked around more, walked up the hospital stairs…..did everything we could by walking to bring on the labor!! Next time she checked me I was at 5cm. That is when it all became so real!

About 3:30 was when the nurse convinced me to get my Epidural. I was still trying to hold off. I wasn't in that much pain yet. Then I remembered that Dr B said I would probably go fast since all my other deliveries went fast. I didn't want to miss the mark to get my epi so I decided what the hay……I'll go ahead and get it. I hate getting ANY kind of needle in my back so I had a whole lot of anxiety. When she stuck my back it sent a jolt down my leg. That has never happened before. I was not a happy camper for about 5 minutes until the felling went away. Once that went away off to get some sleep. Or so I thought. Tony slept, but I couldn't. I had so much anticipation. The nurse checked me through out the night. Once I got my epidural all my contractions stopped. What the heck?? Normally with my other pregnancies that sped along my labor process. The doctor came in at 7am and broke my water then started pitocin. About that time Ashley showed up. Yay, I had someone to talk to since tony was still groggy and trying to sleep on and off.

Every time they tried to turn me on my left side the babies heart rate dropped. So I spent the whole time on my right side. Jenny finally showed up after much convincing and crying between us both. She almost couldn't come because she was feeling under the weather. Then I finally asked the nurse if it would be ok if she sat in the far corner with a face mask on. YAY!! She said yes. So I called Jenny and made her come!!! I am so glad I had my wonderful friends and my husband with me.

Finally when I was 7.5cm dilated I called Mari and had her bring the kids to the hospital. Yep, it was almost time. I knew that it would only be a matter of about an hour before Brandon would be here. So Tony, Mari, the kids, Jenny, and Ashley were all there. We were ready. I finally got to 10cm along and it was time. The nurse suggested I do a trial push. Well that trial push lead straight to pushing. Although I had an Epidural, for some reason I could still feel EVERYTHING coming down the birth canal and out of me. It was basically like giving birth without contractions. I remember someone say stop pushing the doctor needs to get his gloves on. I told them I couldn't stop I had to keep pushing. The doctor was barely able to get ready to catch the baby.

Out he came…..what a relief. I never noticed he wasn't crying. All babies cry at birth unless something is wrong, right? That is what I thought. It wasn't until the pediatric nurses were telling Dr B how many breaths in 1 minute and said something about calling the NICU did I realize he wasn't crying. I looked over and saw his lifeless like body laying there looking like he was having convultions. Immediately I started crying my heart out. I felt so helpless. I wanted to comfort him and was unable to. They let me give him a quick kiss and they took him off to the NICU. I was then told he came out with the cord wrapped around his neck. I had pushed him out so fast they were unable to correct the problem until he was out. He also had a bruise across the top of his head from pushing him out and his lungs were filled with fluid.

Once everything in the deliver room was settled down I requested to be wheeled to NICU to see Brandon. Tony went right away to see him. I told him to go and report back to me. I knew he would tell me things the doctors and nurses wouldn't. So they wheeled me over and he still was breathing so heavily and not crying. I bawled just at the sight. We were not allowed to hold him. We could only talk to him and touch him. The nurse gave him a bath in hopes to make him cry to get the fluid cleared out of his lungs. His stats were all still very low at that point. She bathed him and we watched. Nothing. No crying, stats were still low. I hated seeing him this way but pulled myself together and held his hand, stroked his little feet, kissed his elbow (I'm so short that was all I could reach) and we both talked to him. All of a sudden his stats went up!! Pulse ox 98-100 heart rate climbed, bp was great. I was in awe of what just happened. Just by us talking with him, stroking him and loving him he was alright. I thought it was just premature and the stats would go back down, but they did not. They continued to climb and be normal. After about 10 minutes of seeing his vital signs remain steady we decided to leave and go back to the room and take a much needed nap. I knew that once I left him the way he was he'd be okay.

We got back to the room and both cuddled on my hospital bed and slept. Boy that was sooo needed. 20hrs of no sleep and being in labor is for the birds. Very tiring. About 2 hours later they released Brandon from the NICU and brought him to our room. We got to hold him basically for the first time and love all over him. It was such a precious moment. We decided that since we were kidless we'd enjoy dinner to ourselves before calling Mari and having mass chaos in the room with the kids.

Once we were done eating I called and Mari brought DJ and Carmen to the hospital to meet their brother for the first time. They were swiftly removed from the delivery room during all the chaos of Brandon being in distressed. Good Job Mari for making the command decision to leave the room with the kids. That was the last thing I wanted them to see and have to worry about. Once in the room they got to hold their baby brother for the first time. Oh such big smiles on their faces!!!

We had such wonderful visitors during our stay. My friends here truly are the best one could ever have. I love them all!! So that is it. That is our birth story. I hope you enjoyed and hope it wasn't too much for you to read.



09-12-08
I just got back from the Dr. i feel like such an ass cause I bawled my eyes out before leaving there. I can't breathe. It sucks. The past 2 days (today and last night has been way worse) I just can't get good breaths in. He gave me an rx and sent me home. When I knew he wasn't going to admit me I broke down. I just can't take this pregnancy anymore. And please don't tell me to enjoy it cause it's my last..............this is my 4th and I have enjoyed every moment of it....up until now. IT'S TIME FOR AN EVICTION NOTICE!!!

09-10-08
I got back from my appt about an hour ago, but decided to lay down for a little bit first before updating everyone.

So, he normally doesn't check at 36 weeks. I was told he normally checks at 39 weeks. But this is my 4th and he said after your 3rd they normally go really quick and sometimes early so that is why he's checking me. I had a pretty quick labor for all of my kids from what he says so he thinks this one will be fairly quick also. Not to mention he thinks this one will be smaller than my last (who was 1lb shy of 9lbs.)

So I am at -3 for station. He seemed really surprised at how low Brandon is sitting right now. I am dialated 1cm, however my cervix has not thinned any

:thumbdown: I told him how painful it is starting to get to walk and he mentioned talking about inducing at my next appointment (Next Tuesday). I REALLY really hope so cause I am just miserable right now. The backs of my legs hurt....it hurts when I walk cause I think he may just pop on out.....and when I have to go potty it feels like a pinching feeling when I walk. I'll be 37 weeks this week and he said we may be able to induce at 38 weeks. How exciting would that be? :yahoo:

I am keeping my fingers crossed that my cervix softens up between now and my next appointment. I also plan on mentioning to him how much crap they're giving dh at work because I am due while someone is on vacation. WTH??? Oh frickin well!!! But dh doesn't need that stress either. He doesn't want to be faced with retaliation or anything at work and I completely understand. So I will bring that up to my doctor also. I mean......really the baby is ready....he's all done baking. It's just a waiting game now.

Anyone have ANY tips on getting your cervix to soften up? I have no clue if it's even possible but I'll try anything at this point


08-28-08
Update:

Well I went to my 34 1/2 wk appt today. they did the group b swab and the rest of the normal monthly stuff. Next appt is on the 9th of Sept and I'll be going weekly from there on out. That means it's getting closer. So far I've gained a total of 27lbs and most of it being within the last month Crap....he can come out already. I really didn't want to gain over 30. Looks like that won't be happening. Darn!!! Brandon's head is all in position ready to go. He just needs to start coming on out.

If he does not come by the 4th of Oct, Dr B is gonna induce me on the 7th or 8th. I already talked to him about it. Can you tell I want him out yet?? So that is my update for now.



7-17-08
I've ran out of PATIENCE!!!

THAT'S IT!!!! I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!!!!

This time I'm just venting.

I am uncomfortable, HOT AS HELL, crabby and most of all have started to run out of patience w/ my kids!!!

UUUggghhhhh......

Seems as though everyone wants to debate or back talk when I say something. I've totally had it. I have absolutely no energy anymore and just can't handle it.

Not to mention this stinkin heat makes it all the more miserable for me. This week, I have been in Th EVERYDAY!! I am beginning to HATE TH.

I hate driving and having to get in and out of the car, going from comfy to miserable in a matter of seconds when I have to go inside a store to shop. I didn't even finish my shopping today. I had no energy left and decided I am going home. I will worry about it later this evening when it's cooler. I am soooo tired it's not funny.

did I say 250 day's until happiness???? i meant 250 days left of miserableness.